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       气温开始慢慢的回升，但是除了气温之外，很多事情都没有太大的改变。生活依然是上班下班，心情也似乎总是在偶尔的开心和大部分的苦闷中摇摆。

       终于回到了病房，因为是期盼了很久的回归，所以很珍惜在病房的每一天，很多事情仍旧在学习之中，有的时候仍旧会有些头绪不清。但是慢慢的，开始感受到工作中的压力。毕竟面对的是很小的生命，担心自己技术不过关应付不了家长的责怪，或担心自己速度太慢更不上同伴工作的脚步，或担心自己不够应付各种各样的突发事件。。。 。。。

         最近总是很心烦，似乎很多很多都不如意，似乎现在所拥有的根本不是我所希望的。大部分时间在门诊和病人周旋，突如其来的辱骂和争吵也让我噩梦连连。我想大概是自己还没有完全适应步入社会之后的生活，没有学会如何平衡工作与生活。

         夜晚入睡前有时会和室友卧谈，内容也总是围绕工作，爱情和未来。而谈话总是一声声不绝于耳的叹息而告终，醒来，却是揉着惺忪的睡眼，继续开始一天如昨天一般的工作。

        某天，无意中发现同学的QQ个性签名改成了，“我要赚钱，赚钱旅行，旅行完了再赚钱，赚钱完了再旅行。”呵呵。字字句句都是我梦寐之所求。真的很想抛开一切，背上背包，独自旅行。

         很自然地经历初中高中和大学，然后很自然地毕业，很自然的开始工作。就像大千世界不变的轮回，现在的生活于我，莫过于每天手机里日历的变更，有时停跳，有时奔跑。会有偶然的一天，惊讶于手机日历图片中不经意间转变的嫣红和灯笼。

        在租来的小屋里，身边总是不乏噪音，还有朋友们的身影。但是总是缺了一些，一些在意识里飘荡的东西。也总是有些东西，一些一直在心底某个角落徘徊的东西。思念，思念，还是思念，每一分每一秒，似乎这已成了生活的基调，柔柔的，软软的，在心里萦绕。挥之不去。

       It's saturday morning,i'm sitting on the couch,listening to miley cyrus's <goodbye>..and i just held up my head,see the bright sunlight outside...and also the broken gas stove what i broked yesterday..

     Actually,it's not really the start of new.You know,we have been here for two weeks.But still feel like a new here..Cos it's so different from the other places..so so different.I think i need a long long time to accustomed myself to the new environment..

      Stayed four or five

      Don't know why,i often cry lately,maybe i know the reason..cry again...Just feel gloomy..absolutely gloomy..

      Actually,i turned off my laptop one hour ago,just got it open again cos i found that i couldn't fall asleep.Tears just came down,again..had to flee just because i didn't want him to

       Love this moment.feel really relax..so relax that i just want to keep it,i just leave all the dirty clothes to tomorrow,right now,i just want to enjoy this moment..

      Finally finished the practising in the China-Japan friendship hospital.So great,so great.Can't believe

      This is just a title of a chinese song.Feel great listening to it.Like the lyrics and also the melody.

     Suddenly i realize,i've been in deep love with you..yeh,this is what happened in the last months.Everything just feels so sweet,so perfect..Just wish i could be there,everytime

        This is what i learnt lately...I'm not telling you what does it mean..hee~~But i have said it for many many many times,and i like it.like it so much..

         Feel happy,real happy.For what i've learnt and whom i've found and what i've got.I always feel that i'm a lucky person.Mahal na mahal kita!!! I want to shout

       Lately,i bagan to use the english version of yahoo messenger instead of skype which i have used for years.Those dirty chatting really surprised me a lot at first,anyway,it seldom happen in QQ.Or maybe it has no chance for cultivation here since the QQ has